Ok, weird title I know. But I always remember the phrase "separation of church and state" when it comes to US politics and people claiming that morals should not be involved with political decisions. And how God has nothing to do with the way a country should be run. The same notions are claimed in Canada as well of course. Well, we see where that idea has got our countries!
So what does that have to do with weight? Well I think about losing weight all the time and how I need to do something. This past year, without changing any of my habits, without eating anything more than I normally have been for 10 years, etc., I somehow managed to put 10 lbs on to my already overweight frame, taking my BMI into the "moderately obese" level.
When I got my morning schedule all worked out for the Fall, I knew that I was really pushing things by trying to cram a lot into the morning. Because I do work 4 days a week, I have a lot I need to get done before I leave. I had 20 minutes of exercise in that schedule. Well, it has basically come down to either exercising or Bible reading (no contest on that) and I am getting up at 6AM. I don't think I can do any earlier than 6 with the bedtime I have.
Obviously I need to work the activity in there somewhere, but it's not going to be most mornings.
So in the meantime, I am going to work on my diet, which may be easier. However, Weight Watchers has never really fit in with my personality – I would rather totally deprive myself than eat 2 small bites of something. Way too tempting. Somehow if I know I can't eat something, I'm fine with it.
However, having said all that, I always seem to try the weight loss on my own strength. I remember my Mom saying how she needed prayer about her diet. I remember thinking (and I may have even said it out loud) that she didn't need to spiritualize everything so much. After all, isn't it just a simple science or math problem? Expend more calories than you take in, right?
Well, once again, Mom was right. I do need the Lord's help in every tiny little decision I make in life. It's more about my attitude – wanting to include Him in everything. Wanting to consecrate myself to Him. I am a little less than a year shy of 40. More than ever, I find myself realizing that taking care of me is a matter of good stewardship. My life is a gift from Him. Every breath and heartbeat are granted by His grace. My health is important because I can't be of good service to Him if I'm falling apart due to my own carelessness.
So yeah, no separation of Church and Weight for me. I realize that putting this out there into cyberspace holds me accountable in some sense. Sure, I do need that. But I also wanted to publicly acknowledge that I need the Lord's help along the way. I think it will be slow going for me, but slow growing too. Well, and hopefully some shrinking